Fuzzy Bad Feeling

You know that weird feeling in the back of your mind? That one that’s a warning and just tells you to be careful. That thought that something is just wrong or just not right? Well, I’ve been feeling that for about a week now. Something lurking and just bad in the back of my mind […]

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Dynamic Struggles: Post Trauma & Emotional Abuse

Fair warning! I’m going to talk about past emotional abuse & probably what counts as some kind of traumatic history.  Therefore, everything goes on below a very friendly “read more”, because I don’t really want to blast this on the main blog without warning for anyone who doesn’t want to get into all this kind […]

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Holidays & Mental Health

My favorite time of the year is here. — alright, so that’s actually major sarcasm. I really, really hate the holidays. They’re the worst time of the year for me. I’ve touched on that before. So no need to go into a whole novel on that again. Short version: my jackass of a dad decided […]

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OCD Compulsions

Today was a shitty day. Well, beyond that really. Besides the general toughness of work in the ‘busy’ season, I also had to deal with a flare up of my OCD. Generally I’ve been doing pretty good, and that’s thanks to my medication. But occasionally a bad day just presents itself, and today was just […]

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Mentally Ill Online Pagan

Being a mentally ill “pagan” is all sorts of fun. (high levels of sarcasm here) Mostly because of all the people out there the broader community who all seem obsessed with how everything has to be “naturally” done, or go back to nature, etc. etc. ad nauseum, blah blah blah. And it’s not like this […]

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Rough Times

I’m having a fairly bad time lately. My mental health has not been the best, in fact I’m rather a bit stressed out. Work is definitely triggering all my sore points, and causing some destabilization. On top of that, I can tell that I’m kind of swinging between hypo-manic and depressed, teetering on the edge […]

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Powerful Words

There’s been a lot of thinking lately about words, and what things spoken can do to have power for me. Partially because I’ve been having a lot of internal struggles, and also because I just sometimes reflect on my childhood and just how it affects me now–it’s my personal wake-up check and self-reflection to always […]

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On Being Sick

So I’m fully stressed and fully ill. It’s been a rough month for me–wherein I’ve been exceptionally ill for quite some time. Culminating in today, where I’ve been physically ill and throwing up. Which is never fun (not that I think anyone ever thinks that’s fun). Suffice that this month has not been amusing nor […]

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