Words as Prayer

I’ve been surfing the interwebs on Facebook the last few weeks, and there’s a weird uptick in a particular topic. Or maybe it isn’t so weird, but I’ve just begun noticing it? It could be either, I’m not too sure. Regardless, I’ve been seeing a lot of this on pagan-flavored Facebook groups, and on Tumblr […]

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Fuzzy Bad Feeling

You know that weird feeling in the back of your mind? That one that’s a warning and just tells you to be careful. That thought that something is just wrong or just not right? Well, I’ve been feeling that for about a week now. Something lurking and just bad in the back of my mind […]

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Dynamic Struggles: Post Trauma & Emotional Abuse

Fair warning! I’m going to talk about past emotional abuse & probably what counts as some kind of traumatic history.  Therefore, everything goes on below a very friendly “read more”, because I don’t really want to blast this on the main blog without warning for anyone who doesn’t want to get into all this kind […]

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Holidays & Mental Health

My favorite time of the year is here. — alright, so that’s actually major sarcasm. I really, really hate the holidays. They’re the worst time of the year for me. I’ve touched on that before. So no need to go into a whole novel on that again. Short version: my jackass of a dad decided […]

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OCD Compulsions

Today was a shitty day. Well, beyond that really. Besides the general toughness of work in the ‘busy’ season, I also had to deal with a flare up of my OCD. Generally I’ve been doing pretty good, and that’s thanks to my medication. But occasionally a bad day just presents itself, and today was just […]

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Mentally Ill Online Pagan

Being a mentally ill “pagan” is all sorts of fun. (high levels of sarcasm here) Mostly because of all the people out there the broader community who all seem obsessed with how everything has to be “naturally” done, or go back to nature, etc. etc. ad nauseum, blah blah blah. And it’s not like this […]

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Powerful Words

There’s been a lot of thinking lately about words, and what things spoken can do to have power for me. Partially because I’ve been having a lot of internal struggles, and also because I just sometimes reflect on my childhood and just how it affects me now–it’s my personal wake-up check and self-reflection to always […]

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OCD Compulsions

So I just realized a bizarre compulsion attached to my OCD that I’d never realized before. See…I have favorite movie series’ that I like to watch (Harry Potter, LOTR, Indiana Jones, Star Wars). And once I’ve watched one of them, I just have to watch the others. I’d never noticed this before. But I, if […]

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Recent Struggles

So recently I’ve been having major troubles with my mental health. I’ve mentioned in the past briefly about my struggles with my bipolar II and OCD. Generally I’ve framed it in terms of how it’s been a struggle in relation to my spiritual/religious practices. What its like for me being “crazy” in the overarching pagan […]

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Discernment

I’m always a bit shaky on the specifics of discernment. See, I know that it is discerning, or determining, what is and is not real. But beyond that…which criteria to use, that is where it gets murky for me. See, I’m easily able to admit that discernment is one thing I’m not terribly good at. […]

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